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Delusions (Mega​-​Deluxe Version)

by Elway

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1.
3/4 Eleanor 01:50
the shadows creep faster and further my son when you let this world find you afraid/ and the absence of light it plays tricks on your mind and makes devils from spots in the shade/ but no devils lay waiting there's no god in your sky/ it's just you and the road beneath your heels/ and the pale morning light will warm the hillside/ and there's beauty in what is revealed/ now wouldn't it be a shame if we lived our lives dull and afraid/ if we squandered and pissed it away/ wouldn't it be a shame if we missed out on what's to be learned/ if we shut off our minds in his name
2.
Passing Days 04:32
Smoking cinders settle in an ashtray In a dingy bar where romances are born The sound of Denver seeping from the jukebox But no country road could ever take us home She speaks like raging tides against the coastline I'm rendered ragged by things that she might know The whiskey and this feeling bring me back to better times Let it go let it go let it go Wait you remind me of someone I used to love The way she revived me But that was so long ago And now the passing days on the outside feel gray And it never ever rains The city is burning right now I'm dying It's hard to wash your hands clean Of these dying days Sweaty palmed I swallow down my cocktail Like the things I feel but know I shouldn't say Every morning I awake to my sighs of reassurance It's okay it's okay it's okay Well there I go digging graves for every single pretty girl Pretty soon they'll be no more left to move And I'll be filling holes with a longing in my soul If it's not one of those things I tend to lose
3.
Woke up today with my head busted open Revealing places I left rusted shut My limbs hung heavy tired bruise and broken From the weight of all I thought that I'd forgot I spent so long just learning how to get it wrong Pointing fingers at the sky but my fuck ups are my own And so tonight I'm destined to loathe all the things I've been And that's alright cause you can't win against the world So why pretend Right? Went out last night and drowned myself in liquor I learned to treat my body like my mind I wish that I could tell her how I miss her And how her absence haunts me every single night It feels so wrong reliving her through all these songs Have I learned from all my mistakes? Am I fucking up again? You can't forget those lessons and you just might learn one You just might have a future if you could forget about your past
4.
Sit down if it suits you, darling. Pour yourself a drink. Because nothing gets you down when you're too drunk to think. I've got a two ton iron weight that weighs heavy on my spine. I'd love to toss it on this table. But now is not the time. It's too late to dream, boys. She's already gone. I've got nothing left but pain and grief. So throw a record on. And we'll sing until the sun comes up. And we'll dance until we crash. Until our sorrows are just whispers in a shot glass. Sit down, sing me a song, girl. Tell me how you feel. Because we've been wearing these fucking goofy smiles and we both know they're not real. Maybe you could ease me of this pain. I'd pluck the thorns right from your spine. If I had the guts I think I have when I'm drunk, then I'd try to make you mine.
5.
San Mateo 03:20
Well sing it up on a mountain if you've had it to here with this place These voices our gavels these fingers our scales we'll be the judges of who are the damned and the saved That promise of perdition, it's not coming back I sing all these songs for my best friends Milk this life for all that it's worth We've got to get a move on tonight cause all flesh will perish That ever will move on this earth Don't ask for second chances cause you'll come up flat Our shoulders to the wheel we'll take it back Recreate me cause I don't wanna live in the shackles of the shepherd anymore It's isolating to know we die alone The truth is always there to warm my home What else do you need? You tossed all your guilt in the fire With that corner-frayed membership card It marked your confirmation And rendered you bond with the church that kept you in the dark As we watched the ashes smolder I felt proud As we waved goodbye to the pasts that tear us down Recreate me cause I don't wanna live in the shadow of the valley anymore It's isolating to know we die alone The truth is always there to warm my home What else do you need? Drown out the still small voices rend the father from his lot Cause we're dying to believe Mount up with wings like eagles Carve these words into the rock Oh I will not believe Recreate me cause I don't wanna live in the ashes of the altar anymore It's isolating to know we die alone The truth is always there to warm my home What else do you need?
6.
The sum of all that I believed turned out to be nothing but a whisper in a breeze And I was lost in a meritocracy now with nothing but the tunes to carry me With the industry aswing in the gallows that we made They'll stumble round for someone else to blame There's no sense in believing that our wounds will never mend Gotta live our lives before they end So rat me out to the scene police cause I'd rather be living Rather be living Well these are our friends they're not commodities And don't you forget it Don't you forget it For a scene that prides itself on fun and doing it yourself Sure like to use our friends as stepping stones I guess the reason that I play is to be free Of the rat race for the ones on top must surely be alone
7.
Looking back today at songs I wrote in this notebook: They were all for you. Looking back today at a history of forty pages. This will be the last one. I've been digging this grave long enough I've been hung up on your smile. But if I lift my head up high enough: I can see for miles and miles. Looking up today at the sun-stained hills of the western slope. I won't look back again. Driving north today back to the streets of old Fort Collins. Tonight I'm home with all my friends. Fuck no, I won't miss you. I've got some other shit to do. God damn, it's about time for me to get on with my life Dust off your shoes son. We're going out to have some fun. It's all good now.
8.
I find myself defeated on a barstool Cheap whiskey tastes like piss when you're drinking all alone December's finally ending hallelujah Maybe another year will bring my guts back to the fold You never know But oh how I remember every face down fucked up morning ever spent The fleeting sickly smile and a sour sobbing mouthful of regret I stumble down the sidewalks after last call I drag my eyes through ditches so I can search for shallow graves The bitter wind hits harder on the walk home Maybe sometime next year she'll be my shelter from the cold You never know But oh how I remember every face down fucked up morning ever spent The fleeting sickly smile and a sour sobbing mouthful of regret Put them behind me now singing happily that I'm not dying yet So sail on, my demons I'm leaving here forever I gave up on grieving I'm leaving here forever
9.
Aphorisms 04:02
10.
It's Alive! 02:46
I'll greet the sun today, barely standing on my own two feet. But if there's a truth to find: I will find it. I've seen saints become abandonment and heroes lose lucidity, So I try to stay two steps ahead of the hard times. All that is forever is the struggle that we share. If we loved half like we've hated we could climb above despair. I recall what it is I live for: Why it is I'm fighting: The reasons stay the same. I re-trace every step I've taken: Every song I've written: It's love that leads the way. Do you remember how it feels? I've seen hearts bloody and calloused forging love out of their anguish. I've heard choruses 200 voices strong. I've seen basements full of dancing kids with hearts that span for miles. I hope one day they'll be singing this song. Do you remember how it feels to be alive?
11.
And you'll hear us screaming From our backyards shouting With adrenaline How the pain burns clean It gets so inviting All these thoughts of dying On days like these When you can't come clean It's the same old story Oh how life does bore me In the days between I don't know what's stopping me So what's the use you'll say To waste your life away When we're dying everyday When you don't see it through It makes a fool of you Sorry but it's true You can still save you So run boy Never be caught with your hands up No one can outlive the heartache Realize we were born in the wreckage And I am the arrow The dew that flies suicidal At one with the drive into the red eye The cauldron of morning So what's the use you'll say To waste your life away When we're dying everyday When you don't see it through It makes a fool of you Sorry but it's true It's true
12.
Some days I'm splintering and cracking at the seams. Giving way for her to stay inside my mind and fucking with my life. Some days I'm wide awake and ready to get out of here. When 'Pep Talk' words kill thoughts of her: It's not the end of the world it's gonna be okay. And I'm still glad I know you I'm still glad you make me sing. And if I'm not alright, then it'll be alright. Turn it up, I don't want to feel a thing. I don't need anyone; just a box of records. When I've got no reason to go on: I may hate this place, but I love these fucking chords. And I'm still glad I have you And I'm still glad to be alive. And if I'm not alright well then that's alright I've got you to save my life.
13.
Wolf Shirt 04:23
You spent your younger years with a head heavy with god And the fear he'd find you out You spilled your blood and tears on your dirty, sinful flesh And you kept your faith devout With the fear and pain The guilt and shame Now it's been a couple years and you've moved on with your life But your wounds had never healed You've feared the wrath of men in your home but not the sky And it's a fear that you still feel But I'm here to say don't ever be afraid. No one can tell us who we are Not fathers, not men, not god Our bodies are ours and ours alone Not temples. Not pillars of salt Will you choose to live your life in the shadow of your shame Of men of god and law Have you learned to face the way that all of us were born We're not victims, we're gods. And who are they to say we should ever be ashamed Once we take back our lives, we will drag god screaming from the sky And leave his body on the roadside, and we will watch him until he dies. You don't need to be ashamed
14.
This winter's filled with thoughts of you All the same reminders, all the heartache we've been through I struggle when I think back to those days When it was frosted glass and cigarettes in the car outside your place We talked until the sun came out I'd count up all your footprints in the snow These days it's all I think about I wonder why I just can't let you go I walk down these haunted alleyways These city lights and sewer steam like apparitions stray Stuck in my mind like the candy lies that I fed to myself I pinned my dreams to wax-made wings That are all destined to melt

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This young four-piece from Colorado roamed the basements and punk houses of America for a couple years as the band 10-4 Eleanor, and after building quite a following among the sweaty/bearded segment of the underground, they opted for a new band name and a fresh start in 2011. Thus ushered in the era of Elway, and along with it comes their Red Scare debut, "Delusions". It marks an ambitious step up for the band as they ditched their home recordings and enlisted audio guru Matt Allison at Atlas Studios (Alkaline Trio, Lawrence Arms, LTJ, Smoke or Fire, etc). Rest assured, this new one retains all the guts and grime that these guys are known for, but with more intricacy and nuance than you'd expect from your average "beardo" punk band. "Delusions" is thematically inspired by two things: our society's regard for God and having to deal with maniacal loved ones; and these brainy rockers from the Rocky Mountains are sure to capture plenty of attention with this impressive beginning.

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released May 10, 2011

Recorded in January of 2011 at Atlas Studios, Chicago.
Recorded, mixed, and produced by Matt Allison and Justin Yates.
Mastered by Collin Jordan at The Boiler Room, Chicago.

*Except Patrick's Scarf is Sooo Douche! and Wolf Shirt*
Which was recorded in July 2010 at Mission to Shred Studio, Fort Collins
Recorded and produced by Brandon Carlisle
Mixed by Matt Allison at Atlas Studios, Chicago
Mastered by Collins Jordan at The Boiler Room, Chicago

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Elway started back in 2007 as a drunken mess called 10-4 Eleanor. They released a few records under the old moniker before changing their name in 2010 after signing with Red Scare Industries. 3 LPs, 2 EPs, 500+ shows in 23 countries later, they are still a drunken mess. ... more

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